2010 has been pretty incredible. I got laid off, found freedom in freelance and enjoyed a lot of downtime. Other highlights include working on a farm and overcoming my fear of water (mostly, anyway — though I won’t be scuba diving anytime soon.) It’s been a fantastic ride — I love being flexible, taking trips and seeing family and friends pretty much whenever I want to; I love being my own boss.
So that’s why I’m starting a new job on January 10th. I’ve been over the pros and cons a million times. I’ll be at work or commuting to or from work a minimum of 50 hours a week. The job is in a new field that I have zero experience in (I’m still wondering why exactly they hired me, to be honest) and it’s going to take a lot of discipline and focus. Discipline and focus are not areas where I shine, by the way. And I’m a grump with temper. I enjoy not being around people because I find a lot of them (not you, of course) to be irritating and/or stupid.
So, yeah, that’s the problem. I don’t have a lot of discipline or focus and I’m becoming more and more of a misanthropic hermit. I’m not really challenging myself or trying anything new intellectually or “getting out there.” And over the past 10 months I’ve hardly put anything into my retirement fund and I’ve dipped into savings one too many times.
When I saw the ad in the paper I applied on a whim. Two interviews and a drug test later and I got the job. I’m excited to learn about a new industry and to wear pants I can’t sleep in on a daily basis. I’m worried I won’t be able to hack it, deal with people or make the necessary changes. I’m worried I’ll fail. And I might. I don’t think I will, though. I think it’s going to be a great year.