Little Ms. Polymath

aka the know-it-all

new year, new plan. December 30, 2010

Filed under: celebrate,life — mspolymath @ 4:08 pm

2010 has been pretty incredible. I got laid off, found freedom in freelance and enjoyed a lot of downtime. Other highlights include working on a farm and overcoming my fear of water (mostly, anyway — though I won’t be scuba diving anytime soon.)   It’s been a fantastic ride — I love being flexible, taking trips and seeing family and friends pretty much whenever I want to; I love being my own boss.

So that’s why I’m starting a new job on January 10th. I’ve been over the pros and cons a million times. I’ll be at work or commuting to or from work a minimum of 50 hours a week. The job is in a new field that I have zero experience in (I’m still wondering why exactly they hired me, to be honest) and it’s going to take a lot of discipline and focus. Discipline and focus are not areas where I shine, by the way. And I’m a grump with temper. I enjoy not being around people because I find a lot of them (not you, of course) to be irritating and/or stupid.

So, yeah, that’s the problem. I don’t have a lot of discipline or focus and I’m becoming more and more of a misanthropic hermit. I’m not really challenging myself or trying anything new intellectually or “getting out there.” And over the past 10 months I’ve hardly put anything into my retirement fund and I’ve dipped into savings one too many times.

When I saw the ad in the paper I applied on a whim. Two interviews and a drug test later and I got the job. I’m excited to learn about a new industry and to wear pants I can’t sleep in on a daily basis. I’m worried I won’t be able to hack it, deal with people or make the necessary changes. I’m worried I’ll fail. And I might. I don’t think I will, though. I think it’s going to be a great year.


holiday greetings. December 24, 2010

Filed under: life — mspolymath @ 12:39 pm

This year I really meant to get Christmas cards out to everyone, but it just didn’t happen. I’m sending an online greeting instead – a compilation of some of my favorite absolutely horrid holiday photos. So merry merry and happy happy to you and yours. Enjoy!


round two. December 13, 2010

Filed under: unemployment diary — mspolymath @ 5:09 pm

Last week’s job interview went well, but it was painfully clear to me that I do not have the type of experience the company is looking for. Still, I sent my thank you note like a good girl and thought that would be the end of it.

Nope. They want to meet with me again this week. Hmmm….I have no idea what I’m going to wear.


the if only list. December 10, 2010

Filed under: life — mspolymath @ 5:46 pm

Last weekend Annette and I were discussing what we would have done in our late teens and early 20s with the information we have now: what choices we’d make differently, what chances we would or wouldn’t take and (at least in my case) the shit we absolutely wouldn’t worry about. We talked about how sad it would be to have the same conversation in 20 years, as in “if only I’d realized how unimportant x was when I was 36!” Shortly after our conversation we got a call informing us two friends had lost their beloved father in a car accident that morning.


I didn’t personally know the man who died, but I know his girls. They are generous, lovely people who make the world a better place. That’s part of his legacy. Thinking about one family’s loss, I can’t help but think about the path in front of me, and the lessons I’ve learned. Am I actually applying them to my life? What will my legacy be? What can I leave behind? Most likely it won’t be wonderful children, and that’s okay. I just need to remind myself to take those chances, to defeat the if onlys now so I don’t drown in them later.


tgif. December 3, 2010

Filed under: celebrate — mspolymath @ 1:22 pm


interview. December 2, 2010

Filed under: life,unemployment diary — mspolymath @ 8:08 pm

I have job interview next week.

I’m torn about the whole thing. First off, I applied for the job of my own free will, so it’s not as if anyone is twisting my arm. Yet I feel so conflicted because I have loved my freedom over the past 11 months. LOVE LOVE LOVE my freedom. At the same time there is a degree of uncertainty, a significant reduction in my retirement contributions and the whole health insurance quandary to deal with once my COBRA runs out. And while I’m loathe to admit it, I do miss people sometimes. But only a very little tiny miniscule bit. A smidge.

I also sort of miss a reason to shower in the morning. At the same time, I love getting up when I want to and doing what I want when I want and answering to no one.

The job is in a field I’ve never worked in before. Thanks to nepotism, I was able to get an interview right away, but that doesn’t mean I’ll get the job. And I don’t know if I want the job. So all this anxiety about making choices is pretty futile, but it’s with me nonetheless.

So that’s where my head’s at right now.